urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx xfrailwishesx xfrailwishesx 2008-03-20T02:05:05Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:93469 2008-03-20T02:05:05Z 2008-03-20T02:05:05Z washington dc tomorrow whoooo. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:93422 2008-02-26T20:26:51Z 2008-02-26T20:26:51Z is gay forgot i had it whooo!<br /><br />balls <br /><br /><br />penis <br /><br />tits <br /><br /><br /><br />vagine urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:93114 2007-09-04T23:59:10Z 2007-09-04T23:59:10Z hes a faggot hes not gay..as tyler davis explained about a gay kid.<br />thats how i feel not even a lil gay a full blown fagg.<br />almost a year of abstinence now.<br />can you say lonely?<br />indeed.and when i do have feeling for someone i just dont bother.<br />like now and for a while i kinda have but pshhh the chances of me getting a cute girl are as said, slim and none. theres to many other fish in the sea that are tall and skinny and cute and what not. not drock ohh well good for them.<br />but atleast i can kick there fucking gay ass. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:92863 2007-08-09T17:43:32Z 2007-08-09T17:43:32Z walmart sucks dick <br />im always working i never have anytime to do anything.<br />i have no life basically.<br />and yupp starting to hate everyone.<br />girls suck.<br />faggot douschebags always get girls and i get nothin.<br />its pissing me off.<br />cuz i get told all the time ohh your soo amazing how do you not have a gf?<br />because you all go for faggots instead bitches.<br />god damnit i never can get what i want.<br />damn cute especially that smile rawrrr<br /><br />im a disgruntled walmart employee<br />prepare to be shot urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:92453 2007-06-25T15:11:47Z 2007-06-25T15:11:47Z its been along time since ive written in this journal and im sure its gonna be my last cuz i its gay.<br />but just updating on my sad and pathetic life.<br />basically everything was going good i had my job which i loved, and had been spending times with friends i dont get to see much. then it seemed from a couple weeks ago it all just went downhill.<br />my car died i called people for a rides to work but that didnt work. so i had to quit cuz they wouldnt let me not come in that many days and that car problems arent there problem really soo.<br />lost my job my dad just loves to drink to much and be an asshole to me and my friends for no reason.<br />so we had quarls every so now and then so i just was gonna wait it out and then move with my mom when she gets her new place.<br />so then i come home and my laptop is smashed with a hammer or something and things are broken. <br />so im damn pissed my dads like ohh it was you and what not and im like nigga i wasnt even fucking home suck my dick. its my 1800 laptop thats broken and if you keep bein a dick so is your face.<br />so he has the cops to come investigate and they were just assholes giving me an attitude when we called them for HELP what the fuck. so im gettin pissed and a cop is a cop ill talk shit to anyone.<br />so he says im drunk and mad high and stuff which isnt the case i may have been drunk the night before and smoked like 7 hours earlier.<br />so he starts searching me sayin i smell like marijuana and large amounts of it. so im like ha check nigga i aint got SHIT! so he does and what does he find... not shit. so then hes like well maybe its coming from your room.so he wants to get a warrant and blah blah but its retarded.<br />so eventually hes just like well if i see you driving your car i know you smoke and its in your system for atleast 3 weeks to a month and he'll pull me over for dwai. so im like ok if that happens pretty to get smashed in the face with the whacker.<br />so i leave and get half kicked out half leave because want to murder my dad in ways that only josh white would be able to describe accurately.<br />so now im homeless im completely broke. i spent the night in the woods the other night.<br />last night i was at seans but then i just got pissed off and walked around hurley for a while and then slept in my car and listoned to lucero.<br />and now marykate just keeps fucking with me and sarahscene. you have to expect someone to say something back when you say something to them. and besides she hates her cuz she did mad shady shit to me and basically is the reason ive been loosing my mind and become such a crazy asshole these past like 6 months.<br />i ask her to just end it, why in the first place you dont even talk to me anymore wtf.<br />i asked her to stop because with everything goin on her feuding with me and her is just to much more.<br />im just pissed, i hate people, i hate life, im so fucking sick and tired of this.<br />I need a break fellas, or atleast a place to stay or some food.fuck. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:91765 2007-04-24T19:24:03Z 2007-04-24T19:24:03Z i hate seeing how absolutely beautiful she is everyday.<br />It hurts more than any pain that could be inflicted on any human being.<br />id rather be choked with barb wire have my fingernails ripped out and gas in my eyes.<br />than see how beautiful she is and not be able to have her.<br /><br />but anyhow i woke up ths morning got all nice and clean.<br />went and picked up my nigga chooch and went over to the school for a bit.<br />then that 4th period rolls around and got myself into a not so good mood.<br />soo we left to go on a hike up in these trails kinda in woodstock.<br />hiked around there for a bit found a good party spot.<br />then searched through the woods for some wildlife.<br />but we didnt find to much. just some salamanders and frogs having some good old sex.<br />we climbed these huge piles of rocks that just seemed to lead everywere.<br />gathered a bit of wood for a fire at the spot so we have a good amouunt.<br />now im home, waiting for something to do.<br />the weather is so nice i really just wana get some beers and go hikin again.<br />so i think thats what the plan for the day is.<br />its just to beautiful outside, but not as much as muh girl ohhhhhhhhh FuckshitassBitch! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:91451 2007-04-18T03:25:17Z 2007-04-18T03:25:17Z I drink everyday.<br />it makes me feel better about the terrible day i just had.<br />i didnt go to school again.<br />i havent been there in a while.<br />everything has been bad lately.<br />i dont know what the fuck to do.<br />and or really care.<br />the world supposidly is gonna end 2012 dec 21<br />so i guess it doesnt really matter.<br />im not waitin that long anyhow.<br />l to the face and some lucero.<br />sounds perfect. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:91164 2007-04-14T20:25:34Z 2007-04-14T20:25:34Z i went rollin down a hill as lacey said last night.<br />it was quite the experience to say the least.<br />I dont think ive smiled that much in a very very long time.<br />but im not all smiles, at one point i remember, i could see<br />my room and everyone in it from above.seein chooch and lacey cuddled up<br />and over to me sitting all alone.<br />which put me in this wierd depressed crazy ass mood i have no idea.<br />today i just woke up very early.<br />and ive just been thinkin all day, which...<br />i dont wana fucking think about this anymore urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:90912 2007-04-13T00:28:04Z 2007-04-13T00:28:04Z people are damn funny sometimes.<br />im damn good at predicting things.<br />im fucking talented im not gonna lie.<br />i really cant stand school anymore.<br />its extremely difficult to attend a full day of classes.<br />today i dunno i was kinda down and just tired.<br />so i hung out in karliners like all day.<br />school sucks but seeing certain people makes my day.<br />so i keep goin acting like im gonna pass everything.<br />but im pretty sure ged is instore for me.<br />fuck son. shits weak.<br />but im done with shit for good. im glad.<br />i know myself and i know it woulda got real bad.<br />i need a gf!!!!blah.<br />i like converstaions with my mom about sluts.<br />good times. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:90745 2007-04-11T00:35:47Z 2007-04-11T00:35:47Z im not looking forward to school tommorrow.<br />i dont know if im gonna make it to classes tomorrow.<br />i may just have to scum it p but i dont have my car so i dunno.<br />today was random and enjoyable.<br />i woke up hung around the house for a bit.<br />went to pick my mom up from school but she already had a ride by the time i got there.<br />so then i went and got my nigga sarah.<br />and we hung out for a bit smoked a l and shit.<br />i brought her to work then met up with some niggas at there band practice.<br />hung out there for a bit drank some beers smoked some ls.<br />then left and went to joe beez to get myself a duke.<br />im so glad joe beez is sopen later now. its amazing i love it.<br />so i got myself a duke and headed over to the mall for a bit.<br />now im just home chillin alone and some niggas are gonna come through.<br />i lovoe gettin drunk in the day and driving around.<br />now i sit and drink silver bullets and watch the colbert report.<br />waitin to talk to some nigga that i like to talk to.<br />but there no nigga.<br /><br />and p.s. weather stop being a douschebag. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:90496 2007-04-10T04:32:37Z 2007-04-10T04:32:37Z ive tried.<br />it hasnt worked, and im glad because everyone else really sucks.<br />im done.<br />fuck that shit.<br /><br />ill just wait or have nothing i dont care anymore. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:90185 2007-04-04T17:55:57Z 2007-04-04T17:55:57Z these past two days have been kinda odd.<br />i dunno i cant explain it i just dont understand.<br />i dont wana jump to any conclusions.<br />i could be wrong which i probably am but,ill hope its the case<br />cuz i definately have been in a realy good mood these past days.<br /><br />yesterday i went and did some things with my mom for a little bit.<br />shes taking a nursing class and needs a volunteer so she wants me of coarse.<br />which im glad to help her shes mad excited about al of it. <br />and theres a women in her class that basically has nobody so she asked me <br />if i would do the volunteer patient for her as well.<br />she offered me some money and i figred it would be like 20$ <br />but shes definately giving me 100$ for doin it so thats fuckin sick.<br />any little extra money now is good because bank of america FUCK YOU<br />met up with dustin eventually throught the day and we went skated for a bit then drove to this sick ass waterfall and smoked a blunt under it.<br />later on that night mutha fuckin woods party in ruby.<br />we drive up the path and i just think imediately that i was so glad i didnt drive my car haha.it had potential to be a good party, mad niggas i havent seen in forever, 2 kegs a big ass fire.but then after 10 mins tops of being there cops show up.<br />so we just took off got in the car started to leave before everyone else then the cop rolled up and we could really get out.<br />he talked to all of us and we said we came the party is mad gay and there was to many people for one keg so we were leaving. so he was damn chill with us so when he left we just threw out mad weed everywere next to the car. then we're just sittin and my friends gf comes down the path and sees the cop so tried to turn around but backs into a fucking tree making a damn loud bang. one of the cops walk over and is just like yeaaa i gonna go off and chase her and scare the hell outa her. what a dick.<br />so we got out ralphie pocketed the weed we tossed and we left and got some beer and came back to my hosue and watched borat.<br />good night good niggas good and Drunk. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:89972 2007-04-01T15:14:47Z 2007-04-01T15:14:47Z Im always fucking sick lately.<br />being sick and having to deal with bullshit just sucks to.<br />I havent been in a good mood at all lately.just really pissed off.<br />my dad is a scumbag alot of the time now and i need to move out beforei kill this nigga<br />my mom is also just absolutely out of her mind. now all of a sudden flipped out on me becasue she knows i was burglarizing houses with josh. yea wtf<br />my dad seems to think that me and my mom are against him for some reason<br />which isnt the case at all hes just stupid.so he wants to as he said"clean the slate"<br />of me and my mom. so the other night after coming home from aliyahs i just laid in bed<br />thinking what to do. i came to the conclusion that i really should just drop out for now. and get another job during the day adnd get an apartment with someone.<br />i cant be around all this stress anymore its taking a tole on me.<br />i dont know its a thought for now i want to but i really just wana finish school.<br />but thats a bit away, i dont think i have the pateince for that.<br />besides me being sick all weekend, i had some fun times.<br />aliyahs was fun mad people showed up that i havent seen in a while.<br />halfway through the night tho i just started to get in a mood.just one of them loner moods. kept wanderin off by myself and just chill drinkin silver bullets.<br />then um people fall drunk on my leg so my shit is all fucked up.<br />i have this sick limp and my knee is just in great pain allways.asprin can s my d.<br />i like how me and mike b bought beer and everyone drank it i had like maybe 2.<br />yea i hope spring break isnt a week of me just hating everyone and being pissed off all the time. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:89855 2007-03-26T21:14:01Z 2007-03-26T21:14:01Z I just fucking hate everything.<br />basically i have horrible luck.<br />i could have had my car on the road today.<br />but, my dad lost the title and bill of sale.<br />so this puts a big delay on doing this.<br />this weekend was fun and drunk.<br />i hate sluts alot yupp urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:89344 2007-03-18T21:34:36Z 2007-03-18T21:34:36Z sometimes you just have to drive.<br />its such a beautiful day out.<br />i needed to get away from people and cars and just shit.<br />needed to be surrounded by trees and snow.<br />i went to such an amzing place.<br />walked through the cold snow in my moccasins.<br />looking down into the stream and all the snow around it.<br />stopped and watched this vulture fly over top of me and around the cliffs.<br />walked my way down the snowy path to the end.<br />just looking the whole time for just marking we made long ago.<br />at first i thought everything faded away,just like us.<br />leaned up against the wood and thought of great memories i once had<br />but as i was leaving i saw a marking.<br />i remember that time, that moment.<br />and it was amazing just as always.<br />maybe everything isnt faded away.<br />i can only hope. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:89254 2007-03-18T18:18:15Z 2007-03-18T18:18:15Z my night started out damn slow.<br />i was just in a bad mood for most of the day.<br />carried into the night i just sat around real bored.<br />but as always when theirs nothing to do...<br />we can always go get wasted at the gruber residence.<br />i didnt plan on drinking but it was st pattys, so why not.<br />hung out with a bunch of niggas i havent seen in a long time.<br />scam is always crackin me up, as well as fine.<br />everyone drew all over this kid sean, im glad it wasnt me im used to that shit.<br />some pong, some flip cup, a few ls i was pretty niiice.<br />but i did the inteligent thing and not drive home.<br />i stayed up just chillin talkin with niggas till i was sober.<br />then it was like 630 so joe beez opens up in at 7.<br />so we took a lil half our rest for the beez.<br />got up and had myself a duke.<br />as for now i have no plans for the day.im suposed to go to the mall with ralph.<br />gettin some studs nigga gotta be a g.<br />but i cant get ahold of that nigger so i dunno.<br />im think im just gonna drink my cup of tea<br />and take a drive over to a tressel in the snow.<br />do some thinkin. smoke some bogues.enjoy the environment.<br />then go from there. sounds good to me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:89078 2007-03-17T15:15:17Z 2007-03-17T15:15:17Z the snow yesterday was very nice.<br />i drove a little bit but not enough for me to hate the snow.<br />i was slippery i came to a stop and my car just started<br />sliding sideways for really no apparent reason.<br /><br />so i figured it would just be me and ralph snowed in at my house all day.<br />but actually not, ben dropped by for a sec and as he pulled in<br />the sick snowplow coming after him so he reversed down the street ha.<br />then B rad and billy came by.soon mallory and brandon.<br />good times my nigga megatron is all assembled and legs keep fallin off.<br />so yea there was nothin to do niggas wanted to smoke blunts<br />nobody would drive. so fuckin chinbop comes through that crazy asshole.<br />we drive his shitty ass boat of a car in ridiculous amount of snow.<br />from my house to all fucked up linderman. i dont know how we didnt get stuck or die.<br />but we came back smoked a huge ass gotti. got all fucked.<br />then watched seven and smoked mad blunt with a ralph and Bill I.<br /><br />today hmm i dunno.i have to shovel the shit outa my car.<br />not looking forward to that at all. theres a 6 foot wall blocking my car from escape.<br />yea word. so im pretty sure now im not talkin to you.seems like your mad shady.<br />and fuck shady niggas. im obviously not that important to you.<br />IN Words Of Dave Grohl... aaaA Seeee YAaaa<br /><br />i really wish i still had such a fucking awesome gf.<br />i punch myself in the eye everyday for fucking that up.<br />and i just woke up so here comes that first punch of the day for effin up BUHGGOUHWW! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:88617 2007-03-16T00:32:55Z 2007-03-16T00:32:55Z i look at my last journal entry.<br />observing just how quickly things change.<br /><br />i feel like shit. i really dont wana talk to anyone. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:88348 2007-03-06T22:20:39Z 2007-03-06T22:20:39Z Since 2007 started...<br /><br />1. Have you had a gf/bf?: umm i do now<br />2. Have you had your birthday?: nope waitin till december son<br />3. Been to church?: nope ive never been<br />4. Cried yet?: umm yea<br />5. Had someone close to you pass away?: Nope thankfully<br />6. Pulled an all nighter?: you could say that<br />7. Drank starbucks?: nope im not fond of coffee<br />8. Gone shopping? yea with what little money i had<br />9. Gone to the movies?: yea epic movie with ralph and pete smokin ciggs in the theater<br />10. Been to the beach?:nope id like too tho it would be warm <br />11. Bought something for over $200?: haha yeaaa rite <br />12. Met someone new?: mhmm<br />13. Been out of your home state?: nope <br />14. Had sex?: nope im a faggot<br /><br /><br />In the past month...<br /><br />1. Kissed someone?: Yes!<br />2. Slept in a friend's bed: me mannweis and ralphie wasted in his bed<br />3. Snuck someone over?: yea <br />4. Snuck out of your own house?: No need to<br />5. Been in a bar?: nah i dont have an id and id rather not drop 40$ to get drunk<br />8. Gone over your cell phone bill?: not really gotten bitched at tho<br />9. Been called a whore?: No i dont fuck random bitches<br />10. Drove somewhere?: i drive everywere <br />11. Done something you regret: just wouldnt let go of a worthless love<br />12. Drank alcohol?: fuck yea ive been wasted all the time since 2007<br /><br /><br />Last...<br />1. Things you bought lately?: alot of energy drinks<br />2. Person you hugged?: alexandra of coarse<br />3. Person to call you: umm dave kolbinski<br />4. Last time you took a bubble bath?: i take bathes just no bubbles, they be cool tho<br />5. When was the last time you felt stupid?: i feel stupid alot<br />6. When was the last time you walked/ran over a mile? a couple weeks<br />7. Who was the last person who saw you cry? probably a pill popper<br />8. Who was the last person who made you cry?: i dont realy need to say<br />9. Who was the last person you watched a movie with?:i watched the protector last night with peter, tony jaas my nigga<br />10. Who was the last person you danced with?: dave i think hha <br />11. Who did you last yell at?: some scumbags for being scum<br />12. Who was the last person that told you they loved you?: alexandra<br />13. Who makes you smile most? ralphie and ant simmons<br />14. What are you listening to? Radiohead<br />15. What did you do yesterday?: school, lifted, mall,punk out fat niggas, eat, bong rips with pete, tony jaa, then real drunk monday night raw with mutha fuckin stone cold steve austin. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:88286 2007-03-06T20:45:18Z 2007-03-06T20:45:18Z life couldnt get any better at this moment.<br />im so damn happy you have no idea.<br />just everything as a whole is good.<br />im doing my best in school, im passing everything im pretty sure.<br />I GOT A JOB! WOOOO!<br />thursday i go for orientation, then training starts soon.<br />its bank of america but i could care less mad money.<br />i could be jerkin off elephants all day for 9.50 an hour id still be fucking happy.<br />its gonna cut into my liftin time alot which sucks but whatever <br />i took a bit from that too i had some injuries, but now im all healed<br />my shoulder and my elbow brand new again.<br />im gettin back into my routine and it amzazing feeling.<br />i like the groups of people ive been hangin out with lately.<br />we have good times i miss not hanging out with my niggas.<br />these past couple weekends were just packed with such good times.<br />i get to spend it with my gal too which im soo happy about.<br />it feels good having someone again<br />especially someone thats not a piece of shit bitch that im constently worried about all the time.<br />shes just my favorite and always will be.<br />im glad shes mine once again.<br /><br />lets see Drock has...<br />a job, is super happy, and has a wonderful girl.<br /><br />the only thing im pissed about is my boy <br />may be gettin in some shit, ralph sits infront of the judge tomorrow at 3.<br />not if i get there at 2:45 and cut that niggas head off get my drift baby urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:87993 2007-02-10T14:56:09Z 2007-02-10T14:56:09Z Ive been chillin out with drinkin <br />i can drink just the perfect amount and not go overboard.<br />last night was mad fun i must say.<br />went up to the show at the colony cafe with ralph <br />to see my friends bands first show.<br />clearly stated NO MOSHING<br />but that changed and thanks to me and a couple others no shows there anymore.<br />which i could really give two shits maybe even a thrice.<br />that douschebag kid who said hes gonna stab niggas was there.<br />i punked the shit outa him he ran into some car and we followed them.<br />ive never seen anyone so afraid in my life. <br />its pretty god damn pathetic.<br />so we come home from that event stop at tommys <br />got mad beers went over to aliyahs and started partyin.<br />it was a damn good time alot of just cool people were there and i was wasted.<br />ohh and i saw jack manly last night too.<br />i love that cute nigga <br />then later on at my good drunk i drove home followin pete.<br />which drove alot worse then me and i was pretty drunk fellas.<br />that tells you aboiut petes driving abilities.<br />came home chilled with ralph then my niggas showed up.<br />it was just a damn good night and im glad.<br />im puting all the bullshit behind me that makes me upset.<br />theres no use for it anymore.<br />I have amazing friends.<br />who needs a girl, fuck it<br /><br /><br /><br />whats good for tonight huh?<br />gimme a ring a ding ding urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:87533 2007-02-09T06:30:24Z 2007-02-09T06:30:24Z shits sucks but whatever i got fucked over again in the ame sitution i have before that i was promised i wouldnt but whatevs son.<br />fuck it i had a good night. hung out with my niggas got mad drunk.<br />ralph's passed out on the couch tits at home in bed im sure.<br />ive known ted since i was 4 years old.<br />ralph since the 7th grade. <br />both my niggas have gone threw some shit as have i.<br />it was a good nigt.<br />me and ralph lots of talk lots of lucero.<br />im pumped for the weekend as for the mac tomorrow.<br />ohh and this is my nigga too<br />in the paper on his birthday i love you dave grohl.<br />we're hangin out this weekend baby.<br /><a href="http://photobucket.com/" target="_blank"><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v147/yokneegrow/da.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting"></a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:87218 2007-02-07T06:23:13Z 2007-02-07T06:23:13Z ive bled alot tonight hit me up.<br />tomrrow will be hard. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:86830 2007-02-07T05:58:53Z 2007-02-07T14:05:12Z life = sadness and gettin fucked over<br />im all fucked up from last night.honestly ill be more jacked<br />lift all day<br />fuck it basically. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xfrailwishesx:86592 2007-01-28T09:34:49Z 2007-01-28T09:34:49Z so my night tonight.<br />open house at this kids place.<br />we basically fucked around and just were preposterously funny.<br />then later on met up with ant and niggz<br />watched there fights at kieths drank some beers<br />went to kenny, yea that nigga thats back from iraq remember him ?<br />he didnt remember me but it didnt stop me from drinkin his beer know what im sayin.<br />after that me ant kieth and some niggz went out to the strp club.<br />good times, i ove how they come to me and i dont give them money ever.<br />i just laugh and then they get pissed and im like yo whats good nasty nigger bitch.<br />i really dislike skanks.<br />they are bad news. <br />so then ant looses 15 $ in singles and we think this skank bitch stole it.<br />but you cant beat up a stripper thats just wrong, they already obviously have enough problems.<br />so tonight was fun i wish i talked to the gal tho.<br />even tho shes not my gal.<br />but id consider her my best friend untill she gives in to me loving her eventually.<br />she should, i meen im probably the best guy she could have.<br />im Derek Bradley son, nicest nigga youll meet.